Posted by nelson on Oct 30, '11 11:44 PM for everyone The problem with my personality is that when offended, the first and foremost reaction is to sulk. And when the hate festered to an uncontrollable wrath, I then tend to plan the revenge.
Jerk.
The correct response should have been to right away punch the dumbass’s face. A quick response should have been favorable. Would’ve, could’ve.
Thinking about it ruins my usually ruined Monday morning. What did I do to deserve that? Ok, I may have in the past do my usual routine (you know, being rude, mean, frank and all), but to get that from that person? Intolerable! Unforgivable!
Damn, I really want to punch a random guy right now!
It is easy to understand and to accept all the bad things people will tell me, well, if it’s true. There are also bad things that aren’t true but I can just shrug off because well, they aren’t.
But when I am slapped with something that I am not and I DON’T want to become, it’s a different matter. And it irks me more when it will come from a person that I assume will know me better.
That’s just great! Good job at landing a spot to my i-rather-trip-you-than-help-you list. Ok, that’s just a gay way to put it. How about I’ll buy a blunt bolo and when I see you next, I’ll hack you with it until my anger is sated? That I’m sure will feel a million times better. But for now, all I can do is imagine.
Putting aside my psychopath tendency, I guess it is good to know that I got something I don’t want to be called with. Well it is to be expected with what I am building these past months (the stepping out from the comfort zone with the alpha male personality thing). But I know I have so much to prove; to myself and to others.
It all boils down to me in my becoming and unbecoming. To quote a line from the greatest book I’ve read: “Kill the boy”.
And might as well kill all those who gets in the way!
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